Tho the pic isn't clear the top one is a night time landscape. It was drawn/painted from the local area where i live. the net was down, i couldn't get online so i went outside...

The second is a case of having very little black paint so i experimented with vermillion contrasting with blue.

The third a continuation of the soltice theme...this one having both sun and moon.

Cut it Out..PAIN

Cutting, what a simple innocent word., I'm cutting my hair, i'm cutting vegetables for dinner, i' using a rasor aan cutting my pain away. PAIN!! that thing to which i'm held prisoner. PAIN!! often made up thru my depression but Always real Always felt...by me. Always cutting deep so i cut deeper. It's never enough.shattered dream shattered soul so much pain in one person. have to let the pain out only way is to cut it out ...this is a representation of my pain...cuts to my leg made by me to rid myself of pain...it doesn't work.

To tell you the truth I don't feel much like writing.

Looking into my Hell

The top picture is what's knw as an avatar pic on a site where I met the most important Man in my life. He has my total loyalty and devotion. Looking into my hell. I often feellike i'm in hell because my illnesscan be so hard to deal with. Sometimes I find myself looking into my Hell because I sspect I mean nothing/ I am just nothing and that IS my hell.

Bllod, blood and more blood

The dismal bloodiness of every day

I wish the blood would stop

The pain on pain ended forever

Blood on blood, pain on pain

The pleasure pain syndrome of life

Dead eyes look out from painful visage

Life slowly seeps out

A bit of the odd and more summer soltice

The first painting is just an odd little thing. I was mad at someone and ended uo with a red and black background. By the time it dried i was no longer mad adn endeed weird -smiles-

The whole summer solstice theme seems to have grabbed me as i do thesun and flowers over and over. Will there be more? Well, I am working on a bigger one. lol

Trying to look for joy i find more despair. I try to get away from it but find more blood