Peace is Hard to fFind

Peace

To be at ease

To find calm

Get centred

An d just be

Peace

To be me

No worries

To sleep

Be rested

Be at peace

Ease of life

Life lived

With ease

Peace

I find it hard to be at peace. To find ease in my life. I search for direction and find confusion. My mind always seeking something I feel I missed. I only find unease never peace. These photos were taken tonight and paintings painted from them. Despite the used of prescribed sleeping pills you can see I have no rest, no peace.

Trying to Find Peace

It can be awfully hard in life to find peace. The love of my life came and went in a flash because he disappeared once again. When he came back he assumed I had moved on which wasn't entirely true. Now I have because I have no choice. My only hope is that John and I will meet in our next lives together and know each other for the soul mates we are. A friend, I'm not sure if I mentioned has walked away from a good friendship because his loyalties always were with others. I have turned my back because if a friend cannot be loyal when you are in the riight what kind of friend is he? Recently he seems to be turning towards me to renew our friendship. I am ambialent. At this time I am refusing that friendship. His friendship in the past brought me much harm. Recently someone was trying to comfort me about an issue but I was so sure I'd be found in the wrong I was defending myself. I didn't even realize i was being comforted in my upset. These paintings were done for where I volunteer. they are also an effort on finding peace. Soothing flowers and soothing colours. Here's to peace and finding harmony.

Blooms of spring

Joy of beauty

Peace becoming

Funny thing happened the other night. The power went off and stayed off for a couple of hours. Pretty hair raising whne you live practically country and you're all alone. Sure there are other people on the property, but it was storming and dark. It's amazing how dark it can be. So what's a woman alone suppose to do? Oh sure eventually I huddled under my blankets but that was after i drewthis picture by candlelight-smiles-Give me a different atmosphere to normal and I'm liable to draw.

Storms are raging
Through the night
Storms of love
Rage through my heart
Love to love
So beautiful
Til the heart is broken
Storms are raging
Through my heart
Heart break in the making

not in the mood

These are not good images compared ti teh originals, but they are what I can do when I'm not in the mood to draw. I run an art workshop and every week I paint or draw even if I don't feel like it.

motherhood

A very siplified vision of motherhood.

Getting away from portraits.

Getting away from portraits, after all i can't paint pain always. This was a simple siloquet (not sure that's spelt right) taken from an online picture. Personally I like it for it's simplicity.

Seems I have a lot o say right now. Trying, trying to get away from the darkness and pain Davion brought to my life. Painting is healing. This paiting is healing. I'm working on it. To heal, to live to love.

Healing to live
Living to love
Loving the worthy
Loving those not
Going forth
Going forward
Bringing light
Allowing love
Pain
So much pain
Going forward
Beyond the pain
To the light
And love

It's funny the friend I spoke of in the last blog complained often about negative images in my work. He was too dense to realize that his treatment of me was the source of the feelings. This is a bit of weirdness. -shrugs-I'll get oever it with the help of my loved ones. They are the ones that count. I've had a lot of bad experiences the last couple of years with men. Perhaps this jerk was to make me so in need I'd open my heart to where it should be.

Circles of love

Surrounding the lost

Drawing them in

Drawing them out

Circles of love

Healing the heart

Soothing the soul

Let me the one

To sooth again

A friend not a friend

Painting and inspiration. I've worked on many paintings today. I do that when feeling hurt. A friend who has been pretty nasty to me for quite a long time decided not to be my friend any longer. I'm fool enuogh to value even jerks if they're my friend. Well he's gone from my life and i'm fool enough to be left with a hollow spot in my heart. that's me though I am true to the people I care about even when they are not true to me. So be it now I'm out of his circle of friends I am meeting a better class of people. People who care about me. They done under value me or make me feel less because they care about others too.

New and old

Good and bad

Life goes on

In forever circles'

My loved ones dear

Treasures of life

Aplace in my heart

For millions

Gaia of earth

Goddess supreme

Loving and cherishing

All in need